Is sexy on the inside or outside?

So, It's been a month since I stated my journey.  Holy shit, a whole month.  I have had a bit of pop, a couple Taco Bell tacos (8 to be exact) and I am feeling GREAT.  DOn't get me wrong, I have good days and bad days.  Today, just so happens to be a good day.

I am working towards GREAT goals.  I am working towards my half marathon, and I am working towards a vacation in the fall to reward myself for being so good..... I have even bought a bikini in a SMALLER SIZE so I can keep in mind I've gotta fit into it.  I haven't had a bikini for years!!!!

I hope I feel as sexy in it as this chick looks..... and GOD DAMN does she look sexy as hell.  So I have to ask, is sexy on the outside or the inside?!?

I actually enjoy going to the gym.  I look forward to it.  I am intimidated by it, and the buff people that are there, but then I think some people might be looking at me saying the exact same thing. (here's to hoping anyway) I haven't weighed myself cuz I'm afraid too.  I know muscle weighs more than fat, but I am not sure how much fat I have lost.  I will weigh myself soon though, cuz I will need to know.

I look forward to eating healthy meals too.  EVEN vegetables!!!!!! Veggies within REASON that is.  I am drinking water, but not yet as much as I should.  It's hard.  I work in a mall with NO BATHROOM in my store.  So peeing 50 times a day doesn't work at work since the closest bathroom is like a 15 minute trip round trip.

I have been tanning and keeping up with skin nutrition too, so I feel awesome in that regard.  The better I feel on the outside with the little things, the big things will come.....

I start my half marathon run clinic on Valentine's Day, and I'm excited and scared.  I'm excited to meet new people, to lose the weight, to work towards a goal, but scared I'm going to fail...... I don't want to fail, and I'm pretty sure I won't allow myself to fail either, but I'm still scared.  I wanna be fierce!!!!!

I have an 8K run for Valentine's Day, a 5K race for St. Patrick's Day, another 5K race a week after that, I'm hoping to be a running queen, or at least a jogging queen LMAO..... At least I'm getting out there and trying.  You NEVER know unless you TRY!!!!!!

All in all, I am happy where I'm at right now, but so damn excited to see where I'll end up, hopefully 2 sizes smaller in my bikini on a beach with a sexy ass man.....  One can only hope (on the man part that is)